Today is the last day of 2013 and when I look back upon all the moments that I’ve experienced this year I can honestly say with a resounding voice that I lived my life the best that I could, where I was, with what I had. That’s not to say I don’t have any regrets, because that would be a lie, as I do have a few regrets.
I won’t regret loving others, because that’s the complete opposite of love, isn’t it? I won’t regret helping others in need, because that is also the antithesis of love. I won’t regret any time spent serving others, no matter if was retaliated or not; because when I served others I was merely serving my God, and that is always a good thing. I won’t regret praying for others, friend or foe, because it was my intention to make them feel better about themselves, regardless of how they made me feel. I won’t regret any kind word, deed, or act of kindness I performed, whether or not anyone noticed or even cared. I won’t regret most of my time that I spent living my life in 2013, as I believed I lived it passionately.
I do regret that I was unable to do more for others as my health wasn’t as strong this year as it has been before. I regret that I didn’t walk away from situations sooner because I believed in miracles that weren’t simply meant to be. I regret that I didn’t have the resources to help more people that I knew were in need. I regret that I didn’t take the time to simply “be” when I had the downtime to do so. I regret when all is said and done, that I am more human than spiritual at times.
However, I am thankful to have this opportunity to reflect upon my life; past, present and future. I am grateful that I have a beautiful family of six children who give my life more meaning than they could possibly ever know. I am honored to have a few dear friends who have been a source of constant strength to me when my courage was running low. I am comforted to know that He loves me just the way that I am, while gently encouraging me to grow. I am very content where I am in my life and that is a grand thing isn’t it?